What a difference a year makes! This time last year, I was faced with two very real choices: Allow depression and the would’ve, should’ve, could’ve scenario to devour me, or pick myself up, dust myself off (no this is not a song intro) and reinvent myself; I chose the latter.
Last year, I started my blog. As I saw it, mamatatuley.com was more of an affordable therapy method, than an adventure. Mama Tatuley (my persona) was a place where I could express my views and thoughts without worrying about being “politically correct” or frankly, giving a rat’s patootie about whether anyone read it or not. My first post titled, NEW LIFE, NEW DO, NEW ME set the stage.
Life, or at least my life, seems to possess a very strange mix of humor, sarcasm and irony. I used to have a tendency to duck and hide when life would hurl obstacles my way; much preferring to cover my head under a makeshift cover than address it or retaliate.
Giving up the business I loved was more than hard, it was devastating. For a long time, I was angry, very angry; but eventually, I came to terms with reality. Now, one year later, I find reflection to be a good thing. My entrepreneurial experience was valuable, and yet I am glad it’s over! I am excited by the opportunities that lie ahead. You see, my reason for going into business in the first place was to use my writing and speaking skills to make a living; unfortunately, my creativity suffered and virtually disappeared in the haze of my “so-called business”.
Here I am, one year later, with another birthday biting at my heels. I am working a regular “day gig” and I have to admit, a steady paycheck, insurance and paid sick/vacation days are nice; however, I still find myself missing the “real” me….my calling…my destiny….my desire.
For those of you who have followed my blog and social media pages, you know that I am once again dipping my toe into the proverbial creativity realm. This time, not as a means to make a living, (I plan on keeping my “day gig”), but as a creative outlet to speak and write about anything and everything that I love. Yes, I have to be selective about the engagements I agree to accept, and yes I’m grateful for that luxury. What began as a blog is now a full-fledged website and, just like my writing, I'm sure I will continue to change and update it as I go along.
I finally recognize and appreciate that aging is not necessarily a bad thing. What can I say, my best material comes from a lifetime of experiences…and, of course, my family. From humor and motivation to instruction and Spirituality, my life's journey has written the script.
Cheers to another year of adventure!